It’s just a feeling…
It’s just a feeling…
It’s been a while since I last wrote… A few days, weeks, months… I’ve been out of it.
My emotions, feelings, thoughts, ideas, took a hold on me.
I have no idea how many people read this, what country you are in, where you are, what you’re doing, what you’re feeling at this very moment, but what I do know, is what I’m feeling at this very moment and I’d like to share a piece of me with you today.
This year has been intense. I’d sum it up as a huge, massive, wake up call. That’s how I feel and perceive the energy at this very moment. Today, Friday 30th December at 12:12pm whilst I’m sat on my brown sofa at my place whilst listening to The Verve.
I’ve got this weird feeling. Goosebumps, I’m sweating but my hands are freezing cold and my body is telling me something… I’m breathing in and out heavily… I’ve got so much to write and stuff I want to share and express, I don’t even know where (I got interrupted exactly here with a phone call I had to answer) to begin.
I remember once telling a friend, a dear friend, who I don’t speak to much anymore, a boy, a friend, that well, we parted ways due to life, but I remember telling him I wanted to write a book, but hadn’t started writing because I didn’t know where to begin… which he answered “just write, there’s no specific place, or way to begin something, just do it” – so I’ll take his advice to start now… Wow… I’m laughing and crying at this very moment (Sonnet is playing in the background)…
Breathe in… Breathe out.
I can’t remember much of this year, I’ve stored a lot of memories, emotions and feelings in different boxes in my head, but I want to begin with the following…
On April 24th 2016 I went to a festival here in Mexico City called Vive Latino. I was working so I didn’t see many bands play, I saw a song or two of a few artists, but I did get the chance to see a band play from beginning to end… That band was The Prodigy.
– I had to take a deep breath after writing that last paragraph –
So, I saw The Prodigy for the first time, live, on Sunday 24th April 2016.
I would say that every single day my life changes, I learn something, feel something new, experiment, and so on… but that Sunday will remain within me FOREVER.
I don’t even know what to write regarding what I saw and felt that day, but what I can say, is that my life changed drastically whilst experiencing and witnessing The Prodigy perform that Sunday…
I was totally sober… I had half a beer since I arrived at the festival (1:oopm) until the time I saw The Prodigy.
What I’m trying to say is… that what I felt and saw was completely real, Nicole experienced the whole situation being Nicole.
After that… I couldn’t sleep properly.
I thought that writing all this out would be a lot easier than what it’s actually turning out to be…
I’m going to take a break and I’ll be back in a little while.